PoeticaL's PoetrY diary
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1:38 a.m. : 2002-08-19
maybe I value love
way too much
maybe way too little
comes from believing in
such hard to grasp things
that most think too
very little of
maybe I need a new list
of goals in life
maybe 2 miles around a track
will bring me back
maybe that’s all I need to
find happiness
and keep just that
a long list of goals
a need list without rules
things I can fulfill
without your name
taped to my jaw
of unspoken thoughts
again and again
maybe all you can be
is a smile
i put in a glass container
for later
my sweet candy
my little jar
full of memory
there is no maybe
about the maybe of
finding me myself
and baby
there’s nothing I want
more than you
i’m just afraid
so afraid that
you don’t want me too
that you could go on
with or without my heart
and that’s fine by you
i gave it to you
maybe before you wanted me to
the ache seems bigger
when i stand on my side
i walk towards you and
it just seems to me
that what dreams to be
is just a dream
i might end up
always wanting
like a ghost
drifting across my
eyesight foggy
reality could just be
that you are a vision
i can’t attain except
in a dream
always haunting me
do you wake up at
odd hours
feeling empty
aching for me
or is it always ok
ok that this is just the
way it might always be
when i want for you
i just need to know
that its more than ok
that sometimes this is
all I can do
I know I have to go find myself
Before I get lost thinking
You can find me
Before I find myself
